"When I had my son, it was excitement. I literally felt, like, a rebirth of myself. A healing of mysellf. And it was instant. It felt like something I was missing out on forever. It was like my own birthday, like I was being born again. I felt automatically whole again and I haven't felt whole in a long time. It was like, this is my kid. This is my creation. I'm about to take this journey and be the teacher of an actual human."
"To be a mother is to have a little best friend that you mold and shape. I joke and say he's my roommate. To see the day-to-day growth of someone and know that you are responsible for it. I know for a fact that he loves me unconditionally. I feel it in everything that he does. Even if I'm playing with him and pretend to cry, he's like, 'What hurts? What hurts?' And I point to something on my body and he just kisses it. And to see him learning new things, that's the most exciting part. When he learns something new, or does something that I've never seen him do. It's so cool to me. A lot of people say they don't want kids, but I don't think they know the joy of it. Seeing that growth and having that love..."
"Sometimes it can be challenging to keep it all together. I used to put on this facade like I was always strong but then once I got him it would all hit me. The other day was my brother's birthday. I woke up with a positive mindset. I posted some positive stuff on my nonprofit's page. But, as soon as I started brushing my teeth it all came out. I was like, 'Okay, you gotta' get yourself together now. You gotta' get your son awake and you don't want him to see you crying.' He can see me sad sometimes, 'cause that's just a part of being human. I don't want him to ever feel like he can't show me his emotions. A lot of guys grow up with that problem. They don't wanna' let you see them in their feelings and it ends up making them too cold. He can see me sad sometimes, but not all the time, where it's excessive, like 'Whoa, what is my mom going through?' Like I used to go to the cemetery on my lunch break every day for a good five years. Literally, every single day. So it's like, I can't do that and still be fully engaged as a mother to my son. Aside from anything, I need to be his mother. If I wasn't I don't know who I would be."